KittyKat33 (2013-05-14 04:13:39)

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Well hello there :3 SO stalker, wanna know about me? () I'm just kidding. Honestly though, I am surprised you're interested. Anyways, lets get started I guess.

My earliest memory was when I was in kindergarten... and I used to fight over crayon's with my best friend. Beautiful memories, I know <3 In all seriousness though, that was my earliest memory as a child. Fighting over crayons. I wish life was always that simple <3

Anyways I also remember that kindergarten was where I experienced the first negativity in my life.

There was this girl named Amanda, and she used to always pick on me and steal my best friend away, so I was all alone. It sucked, and I hated her. With a passion. And little did I know she would be the start of a long line of bullying.

I remember a few happy memories from Elementary School though. Like in second grade we got to go to Science City. It was so much fun, and I spent the whole day running around with my friends Delaney and LaTammara. :3 We got in trouble by security for running actually Oops. Second grade is also where I met my best friend, Richie. But i'll get into that later.

Oh I also forgot, my first grade teacher. :] She was the one who inspired me to become a writer. <3 Thank her guys, thank her.

Moving on to 3rd grade... Well honestly I don't remember a lot. I remember having these velcro shoes that I ADORED, and I had just bought them the day before. Being excited to wear them, obviously I wore them to school. BAD IDEA. In attempt to tighten the velco strip... they tore. D: I had owened those shoes not even a day and I already damaged them. I had to spend the rest of the day walking around with a torn up shoe... Bummer.

Something else I remember very well, is my 3rd Grade Teacher, Mrs.Harris. <3 She was the BEST. I loved her so much. Honestly, she is one of my favorite teachers.

Mrs.Harris used to read to us and give us treats. That and she was nice to EVERYONE. No matter what. :3 I still remember what she told me at a Parent/Teacher Conference one time, she said "I could have 30 Madison's in my class and not have a problem." That just made me smile.

Fourth and Fifth grade are kinda a blur, but I know they weren't some of my best years. Especially 4th grade, which is when I started self-harming. I was 10 years old. :/ Remembering it now, I regret everything. I just want to say to anyone who is thinking about self-harming... DONT. You think, oh I can stop anytime. I'll make light cuts and they will fade away with ease. I have control over this. Your WRONG. I know it may seem that way, but its sadly not. You have no control, and it starts off slow, but day by day your getting worse and worse. I started off by snapping a rubber band or a hair tie on my wrists. (Yes self-harm is more than just cutting)Then it moved to scratching till I bled or scratching myself with scissors. Only, I wanted more. I started cutting with the scissors until I saw blood. The scars faded easily, but were still there. I stopped for a while.

Then one day, I have had enough. I was fighting the urge to self-harm, but eventually I gave in. I found a pencil sharpener and broke the blade out of it. Then cut again. I have been doing that now for 3 years. Going on 4.

I relapse from time to time, people still pick on me, send me nasty messages online. But I hopefully won't be stuck in this hole forever.

Right now I am being homeschool for various reasons. I have a few good friends. (Ashlynn, Catie, Dante <3)

I'm almost done with Middle School <33333333333

I got to meet CHRISTIAN NOVELLI yesterday at a show at the Chain Reaction Club in Anaheim. :3

I'm struggling a bit, but staying strong.

Well thats it for now <3 I'll talk to you all later. Byeee :3

P.S: Maybe a Part 2? More details I promise This kinda sucked I know but bare with me please x]

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2013-05-14 11:16:44

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Screamer (2013-05-14 05:41:37)

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Your story is bad and you should feel bad.

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KittyKat33 (2013-05-14 17:03:16)

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@Screamer Okay then...

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KittyKat33 (2013-05-15 15:24:38)

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@Jaden Haha tell me about it

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XxDarkMagexX (2013-05-15 18:12:25)

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Hmm.....Pretty Similar life stories huh? bullied from kindergarten about the smallest of things.....anything they could bully me about....they did.....Then it just got worse over the years, the only people that made me smile where the teachers cause I was the best student......At the end of Grade 6 I was considering suicide and I had only just stopped myself from cutting myself because of all my supportive (online) friends who were just enough to save me....although on bad days I'd hold a knife hard down onto my flesh, praying for it to break the flesh, unable to cut myself........Then over the holidays I had a new opportunity...Highschool.....I spent the whole holidays remaking myself.......making up a new me that people won't bully.....that lasted a few weeks...then everyone continued to bully me...Now where at the present...in Grade 7 and depressed as well as mentally unstable



Sorry for not using caps, I'm too tired

I'd like to here more from you...never give up hope :] and always hope that one day it'll get better

Good Luck

-Seamus Doyle

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Screamer (2013-05-16 01:50:20)

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Bullying is a joke. People need to learn that a kick in the nuts or a punch to the nose will silent anyone.

Pussification of America.

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SPCOxion (2013-05-16 04:01:34)

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^ I remember you saying something about simple-minded people and intelligent people on gun laws.
I can't tell which side your on. Unless there's a secret third side of close-minded people, you're not on either.

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Screamer (2013-05-16 05:20:25)

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Dammit, Prox.

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XxDarkMagexX (2013-05-16 05:39:27)

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I'd love to hear more of your story :]

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KittyKat33 (2013-05-18 07:42:58)

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@XarkMagexxX I'll definitely write more! X3 @sirnight0573 Thanks! That just made me smile X3

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Screamer (2013-05-18 11:46:47)

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This thread makes me want to self harm.

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KittyKat33 (2013-05-19 11:29:47)

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Hey I don't want to influence anyone to self-harm so don't joke like that please.

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Screamer (2013-05-19 13:41:23)

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@jbarcade Your harsh language is like a relaxing massage from a bikini clad woman.

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KittyKat33 (2013-05-20 08:17:13)

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@Screamer You really need to leave everyone alone before I report you again.

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Screamer (2013-05-20 08:22:08)

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Report me all you want, I was only stating my opinion.

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